The Scrolls
Quotes
Lines spoken on the show, lightly cleaned of filler words, each linked to the moment it was said. 231 entries.
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It's like a snake eating its own tail. It's very difficult for the computer with a bug to unbug itself, to fix itself. There has to be new code that's pushed to fix the bug.
Perhaps the best answer to the question 'do dreams predict the future?' is a cautious, limited kind of yes. Dreams express our wishes and feelings, wishes and feelings motivate behavior, and behavior shapes the future.
A diary is feelings, a journal is thoughts.
When you go to see a film it just goes stampeding across your imagination. You don't need your imagination when you see a film; it's all there.
When you've got to tell everybody about this book, that is a weird kind of joy to have, because it's almost like it's bigger than you.
Those long books are very rewarding, because it's like a friend you've had for so many weeks, and every time you turn a page your friend shows you a new aspect of his personality.
The best fiction-making machine that we have is our mind when we go to sleep at night. You're building worlds and stories every single night, and a novel is just that same thing in a pill format.
I would rather experience something that I've never quite seen the like of before, even if it's like a six out of ten, than see another romantic comedy that's nine out of ten.
If you have something menacing in your life, just imagine this is a small Commendatore sitting in the corner trying to threaten you, but actually it's not real. You see it, but you don't need to take it too seriously.
If you get addicted to self-help you're going to look at the mirror every day and realize you're not good enough.
All they end up doing is adding one veneer to the next veneer, adding one layer of masquerading to the next layer of masquerading.
There is meaning. You have to allow the meaning to come in. Don't block yourself away from it.
An integrated person is not a person who simply eliminated the sense of guilt or the sense of anxiety from his life. He's a person who feels all these things but has no recrimination against himself for feeling them.
Everybody has a justification. Anger is its own justification.
Anxiety softens when you face it. You don't need to cold plunge your way through trauma.
Any quality taken too far is negative.
We say goodbye to things all the time. Are we choosing that goodbye every time, or are we letting things happen to us? I'm choosing this, and this too I'm also choosing. I'm here and I'm choosing it.
Just by asking for it presupposes that it's there. Just by you doing that, you birth an answer. You may not know what the answer is, but you birth the existence of one.
No wall is impregnable against Fortune. Let us fortify ourselves from within. If that part is secure, a person can be attacked but not conquered.
People hide their imperfections. Social media, you hide your imperfections. Authenticity is about showing your imperfections and continuing to be yourself despite your imperfections.
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The sooner that you can accept that, you can start to integrate it, and you can start to be like a friend to it, start to become friends with the devil.
You would be checked and blinded by it at every turn by what you are pleased to call your personality.
Whatever is happening in our dreams is happening inside of us, inside of what we conceive as the world. So I think we're essentially saying: blur the line between asleep and awake. It's all your life.
It's about not trying to make it go away. Bring the devil with you, because we are that. That's how you create wholeness.
What is repressed and suppressed is the most harmful for us. That which we bring out into the light, and that we actually look at with our two eyes and we consciously acknowledge, is so much less of a big deal. ... Once it gets brought into the light, it just dissolves.
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You can't be in 2026 running Windows 95. It's not going to work. It's going to be too slow. You're going to get bad results.
If someone thinks they've got everything figured out, to my mind that's where they're going to stop. Their brain calcifies. It's way more fun to be sort of scratching your head sometimes, because it keeps your brain looking and listening.
Choose your struggle or you'll be assigned one.
People would rather choose familiar pain than step into that unknown.
It has that aura of boredom, and it's too long, and it's old, and classics are just a euphemism for boring. Obviously that's not the case, but you have to be willing to go on that adventure.
Closure is kind of an illusion, which is a terrible thing to say to some people, but closure is really an illusion. What people are really seeking with closure is the power within to just say, okay, enough, I'm done, I'm putting that to bed.
So people say I love you, I love you. Better, more honest would be to say: hey, come, we roll together on this carpet. Cause it's different. It's not the same thing.
Spirituality is a fashion in the moment. But one doesn't have to follow old fashion. You create your own fashion... And don't compare yourself to others. You are you, others are others, and both are individuals.
Maybe that's it: it's not a battle between good and evil, it's a battle between creativity and laziness.
Men claim to be logical thinkers. And I say, you're not a logical thinker. You are crippled by fear and you're disguising it as analytical.
Curiosity is an ascension from depression. Even if you just have the motivation for one more breath or one more moment, that's better than just being like, I want to end it all.
Curiosity. That's how you get compounding interest for your brain, and how to fix your operating system is curiosity.
To have curiosity is the superpower of the current paradigm that we're in.
People think they're making progress in their life because they're cutting people out of their life. This is not progress. This is the equivalent of Joe Pesci digging a hole in the desert and putting a body in there.
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Looking at your darkness is the source of your greatest power. Looking into those voids, into the unknown, into those patterns, whatever it is, it will give you so much power. It will push you to evolve as a human being.
If it's an end, and there we are not quite certain about this end, because there are these peculiar faculties of the psyche, that it isn't entirely confined to space and time. You can have dreams or visions of the future, you can see round corners and such things. Only ignorance denies these facts.
We don't know what happens when we die. But imagine if the experience or relationship we had to death was like waking up.
If my head were to hit the pillow tonight, lights were out, that was it. What would I have to do today so that I could die complete tonight?
To discover that you are a phony through and through and through is to discover that you're a big act, that you're a game. And when you discover that, then you wake up to find out who's the player.
Do it for yourself. Say it for yourself. Act like it for yourself. You don't have to piss anybody off along the way. Just do your own thing.
Wake up in the dream, figure out what your totem is, and figure out that you're awake. And then when you're awake, do the scariest possible thing you could ever do, and then realize you don't die, or realize that it's okay, or realize that you're safe.
You can do your half and then you cross your fingers for the rest.
I was taking lessons out of it of how to get through when the best I could do was just dog paddle to keep my head above water, and it even actually just taught me sometimes that's good enough, because sooner or later something's going to shift.
Don't get bamboozled, don't join a cult, read a book. Your life will be better.
Whatever you do, don't lie, Colin. Just don't lie, 'cause you'll get caught at some point.
I'm going to tell you two things, boy. Don't ever grow old. And don't wait for anything 'cause it's not coming.
Bad dreams, much like good dreams, just show you what you're not willing to look at. We lie to ourselves all the time. Their dreams will tell them how they really feel.
We never disconnect from the field of information that is this universe. Just like a radio, we can tune in, and in our dreamlike state we tune to different stations than we can tune into when we're awake.
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You are so vulnerable in sleep. Look at a person sleeping: even a Hitler is innocent in sleep. To release yourself into sleep is to trust.
Even if you hit a high score, the end of every pinball game is a loss. You can't actually win the pinball game.
Everybody has it. Everyone's life makes sense to them. That's the thing.
Everything was unchanged... and at the same time everything had changed.
What do you think, you can just exchange your fun coupons for time now, for your youthful 20s?
When you find out your existential kink and everyone's existential kink, it's no longer dark. It becomes fun. You can play with it because now you see yourself and you're not owned by that shadow any longer.
Those expectations are real. Those expectations have gravity and they carry weight, and it's difficult to conduct yourself without consideration of those expectations.
Become clear of one's own desire, and bear in mind: when you have expectations of others, you will be disappointed, cause they will never be fulfilled. And the moment you are disappointed, you will get depressed. So avoid this catch-22.
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That's what I value most highly these days: this very subtle style of writing where the colors are very faint. They still paint a picture; they're not these bright, loud, fluorescent colors.
This falling in love is to shut down all other senses and just go for a free fall. And that free fall will teach you trust. Love and trust are part of one another.
For those humans who want to change, they just have a deep desire to shift. That fear is always trumped by curiosity.
We've gone through many upgrades, and we're certainly in a new version of civilization OS. The question for me genuinely is: are these masks a feature or a bug in the system?
Reading fiction pulls you down from something, and it grants you more time for reflection and more time to try other things.
For me fiction is a tonic for empathy, and it's a tonic for any emotion that we choose to identify with.
I've called fiction a tonic for empathy. Non-fiction is teaching you things that you don't know; it lives most of the time in the knowledge realm. With fiction specifically, it lives in the emotions.
Fighting over someone's will is like trying to figure out the mind of somebody who's no longer with us.
One of my favorite feelings in the world is stumbling across a singer or an author and realizing they just knock you on your ass, and you realize they have a whole back catalog that you now get to dive into.
Never accept the philosophies of fatalism, defeatism or nihilism. The survival of our people is reliant upon your ability to not give up even against seemingly impossible odds. Your ancestors survived and persevered so that you could be here today; you owe it to the future generations to do the same.
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Grief is something that I know very well. I've walked with grief as a lifelong companion at this point. Unintentional, unplanned, but so was my mom's death.
No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid.
Grief is crazy making. So is love. Love is crazy making, at the risk of sounding like a pop song.
I look at grief as almost a shadow of love, like love's shadow or love's ghost. And just as love is its own unique thumbprint, I guess so is grief, because it's just that reflection.
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If you keep saying I'm going to be happy when I hit this goal, you're going to be miserable your whole life.
It's easy to be curious when things are easy. It's difficult to be curious about the things that make us uncomfortable.
It's hard to build a philosophy on hitchhiking. The book hasn't changed, I've changed. It's still a good book, it's just not a good book for me anymore.
Purist Murakamians like ourselves would say every word is perfect. I need to know exactly how he's cooking his pasta.
Every once in a while you're going to want to read that handmade, human-made stuff, and that's going to be a delicacy for the mind.
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Everybody knows the silence after finishing an audiobook, and I thought to myself, holy s***, I did not know a book could do that to me.
I didn't do it for you, Colin. I did it for myself.
I remember finishing it and just thinking, holy... I didn't know a book could do that to me.
I don't need their approval. I don't give them the honor of approval. I'm a bit of arrogant woman. And it's their problem. They have a problem with me, they have to live with it, not me.
The three most important words I ever learned was 'I don't know.'
There's no dragon, man. I'm not afraid. I'm afraid of nuclear war, I'm afraid of international terrorism. The environment scares the hell out of me. Dragons do nothing.
I wouldn't mind feeling so sad if I knew how to meme it better. Honestly, I think that's probably why I get so sad in the first place.
We're so used to putting so much of ourselves out there that for people to step back and say, I'm just going to be with myself for a minute and my thoughts and my confessions, totally detached from everybody else, is not something that a lot of people even see the purpose in doing. It's like if it's not on the internet, it doesn't exist.
If you put yourself in that same lens, if someone wrote a story about you, you'd probably be a lot more empathetic towards it.
If you see a portal, you should absolutely walk through it. That is my life philosophy.
Today's episode is about authenticity. That is to say, today's episode is about imperfections, the true hallmarks of beauty. These blemishes are insignia of the sublime.
You feel like your trigger is valuable and you don't want to let them go. They're like infinity stones of trauma or something that you're holding in your gauntlet.
It's a remembering process. It's not about becoming something that you're not. It's about coming back to who you truly are.
I have never had a feeling of missing out. Now instead of doing painting, I'm improving my being.
That was a nice thing to learn from the martial arts: it's okay to be terrible, because you don't have any experience.
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It taught me to kind of laugh while my feet are on fire.
The best thing that a teacher can do, that has been shared before, these are not my words obviously, is just to lead the student back to themselves.
For me, life is the choices we make. And there is always choice to accept and move forward, or choose something else and fall in a ditch. But both are good choices. When you fall in the ditch, you will have to figure out how you come out. There is also activity. There is also using brains.
I was ashamed of myself when I realized life was a costume party and I attended with my real face.
Life with a cheat code isn't life. Our existence isn't something to be engineered or optimized for the avoidance of pain.
They don't want to talk about that. It's kind of like puking in public. But I actually think that that is why we need to do it.
To me literature is a tonic for empathy. It's something that you can take and all of a sudden feel in ways that you weren't able to feel before.
That Japanese light touch: you need to look carefully, and you start to see something. It's not on the page, but it's there. It's lurking beneath the sentences.
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Once you open up these possibilities, then anything's possible, and any kind of silly contrivance to help you figure out your ending is possible. I think that's cheating.
Tonight at the Magic Theater, for madmen only, price of admittance, your mind, not for everybody.
Have those masks become grafted to our face in such a way where removing them is not as easy as it used to be in a pre-connected world?
Massive amounts of desire, complete non-attachment. I think that's the only way.
A memory is nothing but a specific combination of neurons firing together... but in actuality it's the filter between us and reality.
We are not only less reasonable and less decent in our dreams, but we are also more intelligent, wiser, and capable of better judgment when we're asleep than when we're awake.
For a while I would be obsessed with self-help books and this and that. And I realized the more self-help books I read, the less of a personality I had.
The biggest problem is most legends are built on lies. It's somebody's fantasy of themselves that they promulgate.
Most men die at 30 but they're not buried till they're 80.
It's not easy to live in Japan as a loner. And I'm a loner, you know, I'm an individualist.
The reason these women are sort of written in a shallow way is because they're not actually women, are they? These are Jungian animas.
I was not with Bhagwan for my name and title and the luxuries being a secretary... I had my own integrity, and that integrity was not for sale.
I am on the happy side. Because my love doesn't depend on anything, except my feelings.
My wings are not capable of this flight.
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People have so much problem with relationships because most of the relationships are based in need. Then this need becomes a bargain point. It becomes a business. And neither partner is happy with it, because you lose your freedom.
When the moment is there to be in love, I didn't waste it with too much mental masturbation. I don't doubt, which saves me from negativity. And we are so prone to judge and define and cancel things out. Suddenly now being in love has a darker side.
There is no perfect model, but there are improved models, and then there are models that do not get improved.
There's no such thing as being good at yoga, because no matter how flexible they are, there's always a deeper layer that they can get into.
You don't have time to read a book because you're not reading books.
Nobody's mad at the CEO of Costco because Costco is not demanding six hours of your time every single day.
An enigma is neither good nor bad, it's a why. It's not a hooray and it's not an oh no, it's just a what the f***.
Now you're not attached to an outcome, you're committed to a process of service, and that will leave you feeling far more fulfilled than any car, any religion, any climb to the top of a mountain.
Ladies and gentlemen, this is not some simulation theory. This is a matter of fact scientifically.
Nothing in this life should be taken at face value.
Stories are useful, and in particular novels are portals into the multiverse. Imagine that your problems in your life have already appeared to other people before, and they have overcome it, and they can liberate you from the burden that you think is so unique and so your own.
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Walls crumble and empires fall... the rotting nations drop off from time's bough, and only the things the dreamers make live on.
The way people become immortal is through books. Every time you open a book, if you open up Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, you're talking to the dead.
If you're just optimizing all the time, you're going to become really efficient and you're going to have no personality.
It doesn't matter what you learn. If you're in a state of overwhelm, there's nothing you can do with what you've learned. You're just going to freeze and it's going to turn into shame.
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Pain can be bodily also. Pain can be fantasy. Pain can be imagination. For me, pain is nothing to brag about. You have it. You, with your own intelligence and understanding, you go through it.
I think pain is not the end. I think pain is more like the beginning. There is pain, and there is what you do with it.
All I'm doing is creating suffering. Pain plus resistance equals suffering.
At the end of the day it's kind of like a paint by numbers. You're creating this picture, but it doesn't really have your signature on it.
We are supposed to know things, but we also need to know that we don't actually know things. Part of knowing is knowing what you don't know.
That's not logical thinking. That's not being analytical. That's ping-ponging between fear and doubt.
There is plaque that can accumulate in our minds that can affect performance in every area of our life, and they create these boundaries. And the problem with these boundaries is you cannot really truly think your way out of it.
The pretentious nonsense which passes for the serious business of the world would dissolve in laughter.
The Stoics realized that their daily practice is preventing the hell which exists on earth.
Everything that we don't know that you believe in until it becomes a science is going to be a pseudoscience, or some sort of weird woo-woo thing. Doesn't make it not true. It just means it still needs to be proven.
Fighting the unknown is like trying to put up a fight against the ocean or the sea. It doesn't matter how hard you punch it, nothing's going to change it. And if anything, it's a Gordian knot where the more you try to unravel it, the deeper and deeper you drown.
The only way to really purify that intuition is to sometimes make the mistake of listening to something that you were convinced is your intuition and end up so tied up, realizing it's your shadow self only after the fact.
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Rating Murakami books if you're a Murakami fan is basically impossible. It's like asking which child is your favorite.
I can sit and philosophize, if somebody will, that's not a problem. But I rather sit and enjoy the Sonnenuntergang outside my window.
I read books with such awe. I'm like, wow, I don't even know how you came up with this stuff. I'm just impressed that you were able to put a book together.
They're going to give you interesting refractions, but they're not going to give you very good reflection. What you really need is to develop a mirror.
Kingsley Amis said: I can't read his books, because it feels like he's in the room ringing a bell, kicking over the furniture.
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I've been ordering a bunch of stuff from Amazon and I get super excited when the packages show up, but lately I feel weird like two minutes after opening them. Like, sad, I guess.
There's something timeless about those emotions, because those emotions are perennial. It's not the sadness of 2024; that sadness existed in 1924 and 1824.
Basically, it was the same answer in every single book. And it was pretty simple. Have a good attitude. Don't give up. Work hard. You'll be successful.
The scenes in Murakami novels you carry with you in your backpack for the rest of your life.
There's so much in us that's been shamed, that's been rewarded and punished, not because of any real metric of morality and what's good and bad, but rather just because of someone's distortion or the way that somebody's life ended up. There's no real sense behind it.
A lot of times as humans we get to a point where we must shed a skin or we will continue to suffer.
Rock in the middle of the nowhere. You know, one of the meanings of the word Sheela is rock. The rock on which they write scriptures.
Sometimes when I'm alone at night and there's that brief silence in between videos, something comes over me and I just feel like crying. Sometimes I do.
Silence still means you're participating, because even if you're just energetically participating, you're still there, you're still present. You don't have to be saying anything to be present.
Sincerity is authenticity. It's understanding what's going on in a lighter way, not in this heavy, fake, pretentious type of way.
People who have a bad relationship to sleep often have a really strong relationship to control and fear, because sleep is the ultimate surrender.
At the end of the day there's something inside them that's missing. For some of them they fill that hole with Funko Pops and video games; for some of them they fill that with darker things and go in much darker directions.
The time to be David Goggins is when you're running and you need to get to the finish line. But you don't need to be David Goggins all the time. Sometimes you have to be Seneca the philosopher. Sometimes you have to be the scientist. Sometimes you have to be the poet.
Stop trying to make the bad days good and stop living too much in the good days, and just allow yourself to be with the full experience of life.
If someone's doing surgery on me, I don't want them to be in the body. I mean, I want them to be in my body, but I want them to be in his mind or her mind.
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There is a fear of returning to the self because in some ways it feels like the answer is too easy. It must be hard. I must summit the mountain.
The answer is bespoke. It's tailored. It's customized. It's a thumbprint for you and you only.
We're building this virtual reality environment in many cases for training, where we have our own virtual reality, the best virtual reality headset, just by closing our eyes.
I don't actually know how self-aware I am, because the definition of the blind spot is that you can't see it.
We all had that space in our lives for like six months or four months or two years where we thought we could dictate the terms of our life, or we thought we got it all figured out, and then along comes the wrong girl, or along comes, you know, your mom gets sick.
Your conscious mind can only know what it's already seen, so how could it know all the infinite ways in which you could experience a solution?
All of that crap that's being shoved into the basement is not yours. It was taught to you, it was modeled to you, things happened to you.
When you're angry you don't have to think, and you don't have to admit fault. The self-righteousness is an easy exit off the highway: you're a dick, so I don't have to deal with you, goodbye.
Something dies in you, and you can use that to dissolve that ego and destroy it and build something new. Of course the ego always regenerates in a new terrible devil, but going through it is useful.
The fear of hell was creating hell. I didn't even have to go to the mental hospital, I was already there mentally.
The highest form of self-respect is sit down and just give yourself 10 minutes to be with yourself every day in your breath, and just see what happens.
My qualm with religion is that these are books that have decided what the future is, and I really don't like that, because I like the idea of exploration, of discovery.
Like you go to physio. That hour that you're there, that's not where the injury is healed. It's when you're doing your exercises at home for 15 minutes three times a day.
The longer you've committed and the longer you've made a decision, the more difficult it is to put it under scrutiny. It's painful.
The basic fallacy that you are carrying within you is that you loved always somebody... Their love is always for somebody. It is addressed. And the moment you address your love, you destroy it. It is as if you are saying, I will breathe only for you. And when you are not there, then how can I breathe?
The only Zen you find at the top of the mountain is the Zen that you bring with you.
The point of Dance Dance Dance is just do it. Do whatever you can.
The shadow is something that reminds you to not lose yourself into work, losing your passion and creativity, losing your emotions.
I consider him the Stephen King of Japanese literature.
The truer confession, the one you're talking about, is maybe the one that nobody sees. It's the one that you're writing for yourself.
It's okay to cut people off after they've had their day in court. But it's another thing to go and just execute someone willy-nilly.
If I have to indulge in what? Then maybe I go for a margarita or a glass of champagne.
A lot of people think that if they jump off a cliff and build the plane as they're coming down... a lot of times they don't build the plane, and then they just crash.
There's only the question and no answer. On the side of those who are enlightened, they don't seem to ask this question. They have the answer, but not the question.
The parents had only one desire of us, that we learn and learn in life. Don't give up learning. They taught us how to hanker for freedom.
This is my world. The wall is here to hold me in. The river flows through me. The smoke is me burning.
It seems to me from my research and personal experience that love is dangerous as much as it's beautiful. There are thorns on the rose for a reason.
For me time becomes nectar only when you are in presence, present moment.
Sometimes the smallest achievements can be the greatest. And I think tough love is better than fake love at the end of the day.
People don't like to necessarily see the truth. They like their version of the truth: the truth plus the mask that goes on top of the truth, and that's more palatable.
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Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.
It's interesting when you have your own thumbprint of your mistakes, your talents, your attributes. But when you hide that, that becomes a problem.
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I think we all have an inner Abraham. Just because Esther Hicks has branded and named hers and decided to host conferences doesn't make hers more valuable or more omniscient than your own sense of knowing.
Reading fiction opens you more perspective than someone who talks about daily life only, because we're all living in our own world, in our own bubble.
Who do you think the devil is? The devil is also you. You are both the fixer and the problem.
We are actually oftentimes, and I would say all of the time, the root cause of our own suffering. And I would take it a step even further to say that we actually get off on our own suffering.
I didn't even realize how heavy my body had felt until it was gone. I think we just get used to what the heaviness of fear feels like.
In dreams we hallucinate that there's a wall there, but there's not really a wall there. We're just dreaming that there's a wall there, and we do that in waking life too.
For some of us, it's difficult to just go from feeling into the vault. We have to think our way into it. And that's really where we stumble.
We heal in kind of a field of connection. There's really a field of healing that's created when people share in a group.
If we only rely on movies, which can't capture everything that a book captures, we're lost. We need books.
In a lot of ways it's amplified these things, but it also means that we're never really fully able to step away from the performance.
Some new product comes along and you go, I thought of that 10 years ago. Yeah, but what did you do about it?
What we truly want competes with what we're taught to want. But in the dream world we don't have as much access to what the conscious mind has been taught to want. We just get to want what we really want.
What would I need to do today so that I could die complete tonight?
Apple pushes a new operating system every year. When was the last time I pushed out a new operating system for myself?
My job was to protect him, protect his community and protect his teachings. And when he himself is going against, and I cannot protect him, it's time for me to go. Then somebody else has to take over my job.
The portal to the unknown opens the moment that we realize that we can no longer survive in the known.
If you get something great sometimes, just shut up about it. You don't have to jump on social media and tell the whole planet.
If you're creating structures that cannot be touched, that's where the shadow is going to hide. And it knows you're not going to be able to go in.
Are we proving ourselves to other people or are we proving ourselves to the version of us yesterday? Who are we trying to win against? We already know we're a badass. Why do we have to prove it?
Who are we if we don't have any creativity or emotions inside our heads?
It's one thing to know that I'm going on a long run and I feel suffering and I feel pain and I'm not going to let it bother me. But it's another thing to actually say, why am I running? Where am I even going?
Once you confront it and you actually take a look directly into it, it no longer holds power over you. You actually now wield it rather than it wielding you.
Nevertheless, wonder is not a disease.
It might be the antidote. It might be the thing that saves you from the analytical, logical, toxic, recursive loop.
If you really have a concrete idea for a novel, write it. Don't talk about it, don't dwell on it, just write it, every day. If it's a thousand words a day, do that.
When I write, it's like an exorcism. I'm trying to remove something from my body.
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You're not going to win the marathon, but you can finish the marathon, and that's good enough. That's better than most people.
You can't really outsource your responsibility of your decisions. It's really easy to spot people who don't take responsibility when they say things like, oh, but they would have wanted it. And you say, well yeah, but there is a part of you choosing it too.
You don't need more podcasts, you don't need more books, you don't need more strategy. What you need is compassion for yourself.
This is Murakami, you won't get an explanation. Sometimes you get it, sometimes you don't.
No matter how lofty people feel, whether it's a politician or a religious person, the fact is you're still a human being. You haven't changed the DNA of the human race at all.
We're warring over different things we believe in, and I'm thinking, guys, you're warring over grief. Like what the hell is going on?
What you're doing is you're constructing your own prison cell, and you're giving the key away.